}i{It’s been a while

Wow….. Its been over a month since I last blogged….. and soo much has happened between now and then…. I’ve officially stopped caring what others have to say about my figure/ weight.. Unless its positive I’ve become deaf to peoples comments. I’ve decided that I’m doing this for me and only for me, so I can be happy with the way I look. I’m sick of trying to please the world because once you think you’ve pleased the world there is something else they will find to bring you down. So I’m happy with the way I am and my confidence level has gone up, people now seem to notice that im losing weight, also encourage me to keep up the good job…I’m a much happier person since I’ve stopped caring plus my fiancé loves me just the way I am and I don’t have to change a thing about myself (=

I’ve fallen more in love with my fiancé, everyday we spend time together I love him more and more, we are both taking time out to pray/seek God together…. Oh how much I love it. Everyday we are getting closer to God, to each other and our wedding day only 283 more days before I’m Mrs. Vega…….. I can’t help but smile, I am sooo BLESSED that I have him in my life. God really out did Himself..

OH I’m sooo EXCITED I’m getting to preach on November 20, for youth service, I’ve always wanted to. Although im SUPER DUPER nervous I hope I do a good job. That I can get my message across, hopefully atleast one person in the room will be touched by it. If atleast one person is touched or receives the word I will have accomplished my goal. I hope that the Lord uses me to bring His word to the people in need of it. What I will be preaching about is something that I went through within the last month.. I hope all goes well… I think that’s enough for now I will try to blog more often but its hard to find time for it.. oh well I’ll do my best..

}i{Words can hurt you}i{

Sigh im trying to figure out why this time its buggin me so much. .. but its like why do people think its alright for them to tell others “you know you need to lose some weight” or whatever else they can come up with. .. . . I mean when they say it to me I feel like man am I really all that fat that I have to lose weight to get people off my back. .. do I really look that fat. . . .. I mean I know im not skinny or anything but im not omg I cant fit through a door or sit in a chair comfortably fat either. .. . .or am I missing something. . .. people don’t think of the consequences that come with you’re fat you need to lose weight

I mean what if I were suffering from depression because im “fat” or had an eating disorder anorexic or bulimic I mean that would really mess me up even more that I was…… why do I have to lose weight for people to leave me alone why cant I just be accepted just the way I am… why do you have to be skinny to be beautiful in this dang world….. what is skinny??!?!?

UGH I HATE BEING A GIRL SOMETIMES I REALLY DO…. AND ITS GETTING HARDER AND HARDER FOR ME TO KICK THIS IN THE BUTT… EVERYTIME I GET UP I HAVE SOMEONE ELSE KNOCK ME DOWN AGAIN….. WHY CANT PEOPLE EVER COMPLIMENT ME ON HOW NICE I LOOK OR NOTICE THAT IM LOSING WEIGHT, WHY IS IT ALL BOUT ME LOSING WEIGHT……. I MEAN I CAN WORK MY BUTT OFF GO TO THE GYM EVERYDAY LOSE WEIGHT BUT I CAN NEVER FEEL SATISFIED WITH WORKING OUT, BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT TO SOMEONE I STILL NEED TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT…

I MEAN I HAVE YET TO HEAR SOMEONE SAY WOW YOU LOOK GREAT… YOU’VE BEEN LOSING WEIGHT, EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. .. . YOU GOTTA LOSE WEIGHT. .YOU ARE TOO FAT. AND IM TRYING SOOOOO HARD NOT TO FALL INTO THE ANOREXIC OR BULIMIC THING BUT EVERYDAY ITS GETTING HARDER AND HARDER AND HARDER AND HARDER NOT TOO!!!!!! I HATE IT

}i{Siblings}i{

They are the best people in the world .. . . and oh how I love them.. .I don’t even know where to begin with this one, but I wanted to take a moment and talk about these two wonderful people God has blessed me with.

My older sister name is Lidia most people call her Ivette or Morena but I like to call her Iweke or sibling….. She is one of funniest, most creative, artistic, poetic loving, caring and a bunch of other things just to name a few, kind of person I love her sooo much. She has always helped me when I’ve needed some creativity for something, she is quite random. But I can’t imagine my world without my older sister although we don’t always agree with each other, she has helped me make some important decisions, and has offered her services as my Maid of Honor/ Wedding Planner. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER, just because she’s her. I miss her greatly when I go long periods of times without seeing her, but love every second that we are together, chilling, relaxing, watching a movie or anything else we may do together.

Now for the little one… well she’s not all that little, and she’s not all that much younger but she still is my baby sister. My younger sister {by a year lol} name is Stephanie also goes by the name Fefi, Fifi, Twin, I like to call her Fefter or Etipiti oh and sibling. This bundle of joy lights up my life, she is my best friend. I love her with all I have in me; we are constantly fighting and bumping heads but we always manage to make up and act like nothing ever happened. She is creative, artistic, patient, loving, funny and a lots of other things too. Don’t know how life would go on for me if I didn’t have her in my life. She has been there for me when I’ve needed someone’s opinion on fashion do’s and don’ts when I'm not sure whether what I'm wearing matches shes the one I consult. Very stylish and a good eye, has helped me keep my eyebrows tamed hahaha……Moving out the house soon is going to be really hard becauseI will miss her soo much.

I could go on and on and on about how much my sister rock, how much I love them, what life would be like without them. And I cant even begin to imagine what that would be like. I’d be lonely, sad and depressing. I am glad that they are apart of my life.

When they do things like this I always get my revenge back and do things like

THIS

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}i{ICE}i{

And this is where I run into all sorts of trouble!!! I LOVE EATING ICE, buuuut is soo bad for my teeth, my fiance hates my bad habit of eating ice. I've gotten better with it where I just let the ice melt in my mouth as to chewing it up and eating the ice like I use to.... I mean I use to go to Wendy's get a cup of water with lots of ice, eat away at the ice like there was no tomorrow...

But if I keep up with this habit I wont have any teeth left and will only be able to eat mushed/ soft food!!! lol AAAHHHH I gotta break this habit but it sooo hard, you'd think that giving up on eating ice would be simple but its easier said then done. Its healthier then constantly eating candy, ahahhahahah hopefully one day I will be able to give up ice for good, I'm working on it lets hope I can break it before its too late.. . . .The sad part about it is that I'm having some ice as im typing this blog but ssssshhh don't tell my fiance he wont be too happy.

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}i{Worlds Best Juggler}i{

You know that saying be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. Well guess I should have been a little more specific and mentioned what exactly I wanted to juggle like some bowling pins or lemons idk anything. . . . . . I just recently became the worlds best juggler, juggling church, school, hw, wedding planning, time to spend with my fiance, my family and time to myself.

As much fun as it is juggling all these things it gets a tad tiring, sometimes I just want to give up and not keep on forward. But I know my reward is waiting for me at the end of this journey. It will get stressful at the times, there will be tears, plenty of moment where I want to throw in the towel but I wont because I know my Heavenly Father will be with me every step of the way guiding me. And he put a wonderful guy by my side to give me that pep talk when I need it and help me to keep going.


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}i{My Blessing}i{

Often I catch myself daydreaming or thinking about how truly blessed I am that he’s in my life. Many times I catch myself just staring at him and can’t help but smile that he’s a part of my life. He’s my best friend, the person whom God created just for me. God took His time to make sure he was perfect for me I mean I just asked for a few things that I wanted in my husband to be, but God as usual went above and beyond in all sorts of ways when He created Mike. .. . . . .

I love him with all I have, he’s the best thing that’s happened to me. I can always count on him…. I’m overwhelmed with joy at the thought that I'm going to be married to such an awesome guy. I mean I get to spend the rest of my life with him, I get to share precious moment, my worries, my stress, my sad moments, my happy moment and everything else in between with him. I get to experience life, learn more about him more than I know, things he loves, hates, worries about.

But above all I get to grow with him in our walk with Christ together, hand in hand. And though we may fall at times in our walk, I will help him and he will help me to make it until the end.

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}i{Natural Highs}i{

Sometimes in life we get down and can't seem the shake things but we have to learn to appreciate what we have because there are many that don't have nearly as much as we do. . . .So when you're down in the dumps here are some things to think about and feel good about.. . .

Take the time and think about one at a time before going on to the next one. It does make you feel GOOD =D. . .Enjoy

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15 The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you
19 Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS
24. Watching the sunset or sunrise
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38 Holding hands with someone you care about.
39 Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise/ sunset
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think

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}i{Two becoming one}i{

Well I wanted to start something new.. .. Have a way of keeping memories meaningful days to me, I have a problem with starting things but somehow give up and never finish it but imma try and stick to this one. . . . .


Recently I became engaged to the greatest guy in the world. .. He is my best friend, my other half all I could ever ask for and more. I'm always safe when he's with me I miss him when he away from me, He has always given me advice when I needed it and helped me out when i wasnt sure about something. couldnt imagine myself without him and I still can't believe im gettin married to him . . .Now all the wedding plans begin and I cant wait. Everyday we get closer and closer to becoming one whole person =D

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