}i{Words can hurt you}i{

Sigh im trying to figure out why this time its buggin me so much. .. but its like why do people think its alright for them to tell others “you know you need to lose some weight” or whatever else they can come up with. .. . . I mean when they say it to me I feel like man am I really all that fat that I have to lose weight to get people off my back. .. do I really look that fat. . . .. I mean I know im not skinny or anything but im not omg I cant fit through a door or sit in a chair comfortably fat either. .. . .or am I missing something. . .. people don’t think of the consequences that come with you’re fat you need to lose weight

I mean what if I were suffering from depression because im “fat” or had an eating disorder anorexic or bulimic I mean that would really mess me up even more that I was…… why do I have to lose weight for people to leave me alone why cant I just be accepted just the way I am… why do you have to be skinny to be beautiful in this dang world….. what is skinny??!?!?

UGH I HATE BEING A GIRL SOMETIMES I REALLY DO…. AND ITS GETTING HARDER AND HARDER FOR ME TO KICK THIS IN THE BUTT… EVERYTIME I GET UP I HAVE SOMEONE ELSE KNOCK ME DOWN AGAIN….. WHY CANT PEOPLE EVER COMPLIMENT ME ON HOW NICE I LOOK OR NOTICE THAT IM LOSING WEIGHT, WHY IS IT ALL BOUT ME LOSING WEIGHT……. I MEAN I CAN WORK MY BUTT OFF GO TO THE GYM EVERYDAY LOSE WEIGHT BUT I CAN NEVER FEEL SATISFIED WITH WORKING OUT, BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT TO SOMEONE I STILL NEED TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT…

I MEAN I HAVE YET TO HEAR SOMEONE SAY WOW YOU LOOK GREAT… YOU’VE BEEN LOSING WEIGHT, EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. .. . YOU GOTTA LOSE WEIGHT. .YOU ARE TOO FAT. AND IM TRYING SOOOOO HARD NOT TO FALL INTO THE ANOREXIC OR BULIMIC THING BUT EVERYDAY ITS GETTING HARDER AND HARDER AND HARDER AND HARDER NOT TOO!!!!!! I HATE IT

}i{Siblings}i{

They are the best people in the world .. . . and oh how I love them.. .I don’t even know where to begin with this one, but I wanted to take a moment and talk about these two wonderful people God has blessed me with.

My older sister name is Lidia most people call her Ivette or Morena but I like to call her Iweke or sibling….. She is one of funniest, most creative, artistic, poetic loving, caring and a bunch of other things just to name a few, kind of person I love her sooo much. She has always helped me when I’ve needed some creativity for something, she is quite random. But I can’t imagine my world without my older sister although we don’t always agree with each other, she has helped me make some important decisions, and has offered her services as my Maid of Honor/ Wedding Planner. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER, just because she’s her. I miss her greatly when I go long periods of times without seeing her, but love every second that we are together, chilling, relaxing, watching a movie or anything else we may do together.

Now for the little one… well she’s not all that little, and she’s not all that much younger but she still is my baby sister. My younger sister {by a year lol} name is Stephanie also goes by the name Fefi, Fifi, Twin, I like to call her Fefter or Etipiti oh and sibling. This bundle of joy lights up my life, she is my best friend. I love her with all I have in me; we are constantly fighting and bumping heads but we always manage to make up and act like nothing ever happened. She is creative, artistic, patient, loving, funny and a lots of other things too. Don’t know how life would go on for me if I didn’t have her in my life. She has been there for me when I’ve needed someone’s opinion on fashion do’s and don’ts when I'm not sure whether what I'm wearing matches shes the one I consult. Very stylish and a good eye, has helped me keep my eyebrows tamed hahaha……Moving out the house soon is going to be really hard becauseI will miss her soo much.

I could go on and on and on about how much my sister rock, how much I love them, what life would be like without them. And I cant even begin to imagine what that would be like. I’d be lonely, sad and depressing. I am glad that they are apart of my life.

When they do things like this I always get my revenge back and do things like

THIS

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